In 2018, Beyoncé became the first black woman to headline the Coachella music festival. But the milestone almost never happened due to an “extremely difficult pregnancy,’” the singer reveals in a candid Nexflix documentary.
According to People, Beyoncé says in the film that her pregnancy was a surprise — as was the news that she was expecting twins. She suffered from pre-eclampsia, a dangerous complication that causes high blood pressure, water retention, protein in the urine and other disconcerting symptoms. By the end of her pregnancy, she weighed 218 pounds. Then came another scare.
“In the womb, one of my babies’ hearts paused a few times, so I had to get an emergency C-section,” the singer said.
The twins were born in 2017, and Beyoncé began preparing to take on Coachella. But physically and emotionally, it was hard to commit to the work. “In the beginning, there were so many muscle spasms, and just internally, my body was not connected. My mind was not there,” she revealed. “My mind wanted to be with my children.”
Like many new mothers, Beyoncé struggled to accommodate the demands of her job and raising children. She says she can’t rehearse for “15 hours straight” anymore, but she is happy with the balance she has learned to strike. “I just feel like I’m just a new woman in a new chapter of my life and I’m not even trying to be who I was,” she said “It’s so beautiful that children do that to you.”
Watch the trailer for the new film below.
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